Thursday, October 18, 2012
Illuminati
I have been researching the illuminati and population control from the government. Found some interesting and messed up things. Conspiracy theories have always been of my interest. Whether you believe it or not, you gotta admit there has to be some truth within it. Theres just to many concidences. Illuminati suspected members
Thursday, October 11, 2012
My Safe Place
Well I am only writing this post because my shop teacher was really inspired by a journal entry i wrote in my notebook for her. It was about my safe place.
My safe place isnt something physical. As you will learn over time I am all about emotion. I desire to be shown love and affection ALOT and it does kinda get annoying to my boyfriend because i am sometimes a little too needy. I dont have much of a relationship with my family and i dont have many friends so i have been pretty much alone most of my life. I never reeally knew how to interact with other people i guess you could say. So im still new with all this. its taking some time to adjust and trust. Anyway my safe place is a few things. When im with BOTH my son and my boyfriend i feel safe. Like without one or the other i get paranoid and scared. Especially when im without both. I go crazy and have fits. I get upset too. I feel like i need them both in my presence in order for me to feel and be complete.
When im without my boyfriend and just with my son i can cope better when i have something of my boyfriends with me. Call me what you want but i like having something that smells like my boyfriend preferably. Trust me i know its really weird but i cant help it. He lets me use his jacket in school and it makes me feel safe. Sometimes i feel like an addict. I need the emotion and i need the presence of them both. I honestly dont know how to control it though so it does kinda affect my few relationships with people that I have. I get moody and push people away even though i dont want too. But thats a different story for anotherr blog post. Im done for now but i will post again later.
xoxo
My safe place isnt something physical. As you will learn over time I am all about emotion. I desire to be shown love and affection ALOT and it does kinda get annoying to my boyfriend because i am sometimes a little too needy. I dont have much of a relationship with my family and i dont have many friends so i have been pretty much alone most of my life. I never reeally knew how to interact with other people i guess you could say. So im still new with all this. its taking some time to adjust and trust. Anyway my safe place is a few things. When im with BOTH my son and my boyfriend i feel safe. Like without one or the other i get paranoid and scared. Especially when im without both. I go crazy and have fits. I get upset too. I feel like i need them both in my presence in order for me to feel and be complete.
When im without my boyfriend and just with my son i can cope better when i have something of my boyfriends with me. Call me what you want but i like having something that smells like my boyfriend preferably. Trust me i know its really weird but i cant help it. He lets me use his jacket in school and it makes me feel safe. Sometimes i feel like an addict. I need the emotion and i need the presence of them both. I honestly dont know how to control it though so it does kinda affect my few relationships with people that I have. I get moody and push people away even though i dont want too. But thats a different story for anotherr blog post. Im done for now but i will post again later.
xoxo
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
My Life
I am a teen mother, a designer, an artist, a soon to be wife(hopefully), and much more.
A little about myself:
Well to start i am 17 year old. I have a son named Jadyn but for privacy issues I will not be posting much about him. I have a boyfriend who i have been in love with since my sophomore year of high school. He is the father of my son. We have been through ALOT together but in the end we still made it out holding hands and side by side. He and our son are my life. I dont have much of a relationship with anyone in my family except for with my sister amber. Right now we havent talked much because we both have been busy with our seperate and complicated lives but she will always be my best friend. No matter what. I come from a big family. Really wont get into that right now. Maybe later in a different blog post.
I go to CCTS in New Jersey for design and tailoring. I am currently a senior there. I dont have the best fashion sense when it comes to what i wear but i am decent when it comes to what other people like and look good in.
I love music. My favorite band is Coheed and Cambria. I love their new album afterman and i plan on writing a review for it, sometime this week. I will keep you guys updated.
I dont have many friends because i am a loner i guess you could say. Id rather stay to myself because these days having friends means drama and I have had enough family drama to last me a lifetime. i dont care for what people have to say so i will not get offended if someone insults me. Im a lover not a fighter but when it comes to my son and my boyfriend i will fight for them.
I will update my blog with songs i like, pictures and journal entries. So if you will get annoyed or bored by that, well then dont read obviously. Dont come to my page to start drama either cuz i will just block you and leave it at that. My feelings wont be hurt. Like i said, i do my own thing and dont care what people think or say. I have better things to do with my life. Thanks!
xoxo
A little about myself:
Well to start i am 17 year old. I have a son named Jadyn but for privacy issues I will not be posting much about him. I have a boyfriend who i have been in love with since my sophomore year of high school. He is the father of my son. We have been through ALOT together but in the end we still made it out holding hands and side by side. He and our son are my life. I dont have much of a relationship with anyone in my family except for with my sister amber. Right now we havent talked much because we both have been busy with our seperate and complicated lives but she will always be my best friend. No matter what. I come from a big family. Really wont get into that right now. Maybe later in a different blog post.
I go to CCTS in New Jersey for design and tailoring. I am currently a senior there. I dont have the best fashion sense when it comes to what i wear but i am decent when it comes to what other people like and look good in.
I love music. My favorite band is Coheed and Cambria. I love their new album afterman and i plan on writing a review for it, sometime this week. I will keep you guys updated.
I dont have many friends because i am a loner i guess you could say. Id rather stay to myself because these days having friends means drama and I have had enough family drama to last me a lifetime. i dont care for what people have to say so i will not get offended if someone insults me. Im a lover not a fighter but when it comes to my son and my boyfriend i will fight for them.
I will update my blog with songs i like, pictures and journal entries. So if you will get annoyed or bored by that, well then dont read obviously. Dont come to my page to start drama either cuz i will just block you and leave it at that. My feelings wont be hurt. Like i said, i do my own thing and dont care what people think or say. I have better things to do with my life. Thanks!
xoxo
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